Writing pressures

One of the reasons I went with four posts on Summing-Up was because one long post is a lot more daunting when there’s nothing you want to write about. I have a list of topics I want to talk about, but I really don’t want to talk about them at ten o’clock. I want to go to bed at ten o’clock. It’s not like I’m going to get a good night’s sleep. At this point the nightmares have become intellectual curiosities. I actually enjoy figuring out why this piece of news is playing out in this particular way in my dreams. Sort of. The “enjoyment” of figuring it out helps me forget the dream. The nightmare.

So now we have the first second paragraph in a Summing-Up post ever. Today is day 166 of Summing-Up. I’ve written at least 58,432 words on this blog. I’m not even half done? I’m glad I didn’t do the math yesterday because I probably would’ve waited until I was half done to change up the format.

I listened to a couple podcasts on the commute today. Morning was “Mac Geek Gab,” which has been a favorite for over a decade I think. I mean, I know it’s been a favorite but I’m not sure about the decade figure. On the way home, I listened to “Black Girl Dangerous.” Even though I’m frequently accused of being a morning person, I don’t want to use my brain first thing in the morning. I listen to “BGD” at night and I’m practically crashing to make a note to check something out later. Even when I should be taking notes in the morning on “MGG,” I don’t. Though bookmarking is in their app. It’s just different brain speeds. Critical thinking, critical reflection, critical listening—not the easiest thing in the morning.

I wasn’t always an evening thinker. It’s situational, I’m sure, requiring adaptation time and so on. But it’s important to figure out the mind’s schedule for these things. It’s not about maximizing time, it’s about maximizing attention and consideration. It’s about keeping the mind engaged, hungry.

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